So this is my first post..im kinda new to this. lupus really changed my life & these past few months have been the hardest of my life.sometimes i think God is punishing me for the things ive done in my past & for having friends who are bad influences. theres times when i just break down and cry cause of everything thats happened to me. i always ask "why me?" i never thought something like this could happen to me but here i am. my face looks huge thanks to the meds and im constantly losing hair :/ im a teenager in high school so the way i look is kinda a big deal to me. people always ask me why i look the way i do and it makes me feel horrible. then i read peoples personal experiences and i saw how horrible they had it. thats when i realized that im really lucky and it was selfish of me to just worry about how i looked. to be honest i still kinda worry about how i look but i tell myself that i shouldnt give it much importance. everyday i thank God for giving me a 2nd chance