Oh how I have ran the gammit, and have jumped through hoops hoping to have just one doctor here in the states to say anything that can explain anything about Lupus! When I go to see the Dr anymore here where I live it is for individual physical problems I am having. For almost 10 years I have fought this disease. I have been to Hell and back physically and mentally! I have learned my confidence in our medical system is shot to hell. I hear it is common for Lupus patients to feel the way I do. It is frustrating enough to fight a phantom like Lupus, then have to fight to get any answers to your questions is not right!! What experiences has anyone else had? I gave up on our system has anyone else given up or about to?