What a lovely wife you are !! Its human nature like Sandy said to feel how you do,but you really shouldnt.Many members here have experienced loss after diagnosis,so for you to love unconditionally is beautiful. I know lifes not as you planned it,but as time goes by you will cope,things will work out,just a little differently than you planned.Its going to be stressful,but you have each other still thats massive.Have you got insurance for health care and if it does come to it,you working again,could you maybe do some part time work at home maybe? There is help out there,its just knowing where to look,so hopefully members here may point you in the right direction.Other members will come and support you soon.So hang in there.Between us all we'll help you through this somehow.I am sorry your husband has Lupus and i do hope you are coping as best you can.So glad you found us.
lots of love
I am still here,just been on new meds so unable to function like i used to.I will pop back,just know im thinking of you all and hoping you are keeping on keeping on.xxxxxxx