Just getting the stress out
Today has been painful... My lyrica isn't even cutting it. It's because I'm so stressed out about my littlest boy.
I took him to the dr. today. He's been really cranky and cries alot... He says his toes hurt his ankles hurt his knees hurt and his back and neck hurt... well I thought it might have been the flu because he acts like a normal boy 80% of the time. The other 20% he's waking me up in bed saying he had a bad dream and he hurts... or he's mean to the animals that he was just playing with 10 seconds ago... or he's just starts bawling for no apparent reason. The doctor felt him where he hurt... he wiggled away when he got to where it hurt. The dr. didn't say much about it... he just said I would like to get blood work done it's not normal for a child his age to hurt in his joints. He went on with examination. He looked at me funny and asked me "Did he always have a heart murmur?" Oh CRAP (well the much more explicit word I thought in my head) No I answered. Well he has one now the boy's doctor replyed. He said it's not a big deal. It just could be the day... how he feels... that could cause it. He said if it's there in a month he's going to do an ecocardiogram.
Well here's the thing with me..... I had a heart murmur until I was a tween. It was suppoused to have went away as I grew older. At times it feels like there is a butterfly beating against my chest, especially when I am stressed or lay down.
My husband side of the family has enlarged organs (his brother who died at the age 31 complications due to the organs during a simple ankle surgery) epilpsie (both his sister and neice have this) and ankylosing spinolitis (inflamation between the joints in the spine and hips. Eventually the spine and the hips fuse together) Devan, my husband is showing sighns of this, my father inlaw has it and my grandfatherlaw died of it.
Not only all this but his speach hasn't improved since we had tubes put in his ears for constant ear infections... he sounds like he's a two year old. I've been working hard with him and there is no improvement. I think a speach therapist would help... But I also think that a hearing test would be helpful to see if he has perment hearing loss due to the second set of tubes and the cronic ear infections that made his eardrums burst.
The pain right now is so awfull. I can barely type like I use too. My legs are on fire and my back is in indescrible pain.
hmmm I wonder how you guys deal with difficult stress like this.... suggestions would be nice.
What do you guys think... Do you think I'm being an over parinoid mother by thinking this heart murmur could be connected to his joint pain or could be due to the crappy genetics from both his mother and father?
Am I being to parinoid about his ears?
The comments are always helpful and appreciated.
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