I warn whoever is going to read this I'm ranting .... I thank you for reading ahead and helping me out emotionally.
Right now I'm trying to fight back the tears of pissed offess. I'm going to do what EVERYONE here on the board has been telling me to do. Go to a differnt doctor. Heck I'm gonna go to my kids doctor at least he listens to me when I talk to him about my sons; maybe he'll listen to me too. The doctor I'm going to now is a complete idiot and everything falls on deaf ears.
I went into the clinic today because Dr. Horrocks (the dippy do dah day that I was seeing for 4 years and has sucked about 20 grand that I don't have out of me by sending me to unnesscary specialits and tests and to the butcher... errr.. I mean hospital. Is it me or are some doctors in it for the money) wanted to see the start of the "lupus rash" when it appeared. Well I came into the clinc today with the blisters across my cheecks and my whole body shaking for no reason. (my husband says I look like a bobble head. I know he's just teasin' .) Dr. Horrocks looks at me and tells me to put a cream on it. Two weeks ago he told me I had lupus. Now he's telling me it's just a rash. I looked at him and said why did you tell me I had lupus, He didn't say anything about that. Then I started piping up saying what the heck (but the other word) What are you going to do about my head nodding my feet and hands swelling? Oh it's just your litum. Your levels are too high lets take blood and check it. Well my friend the nurse (she truely is my friend) came in and saw me fighting back the tears. She asked me what was wrong. I told her I want to know. All I want is to know what's wrong with me. I'm TIRED of coming in here everymonth with something (swollen hands and feet, migranes so bad I'm barfing, my hair falling out, my legs with pins and needles[Doctor Horrocks said it has to do with my fat pushing on the nerves, that might be some of it] the blisters and rash on my face the list goes on) I want answers. She asked what he said about the blisters that are clearly on your face. I told her what he told me "put a cream on it." Then she stuck me . (I hate blood draws OUCH) long story short I was stuck three times and almost passed out because I pierced through my own vain (involintary shook while she was taking blood) I'm going to wait until after Wensday when the results then I'm going to call my kids doctor for an appointment.