How do you balance your life?
I'm getting stressed out and don't know what to do. The good news is that I seem to be out of the major flare that kicked my butt in the fall. The other good news is that for the first time since I was diagnosed, I have been reconnecting with old friends on facebook and we've been making plans to get together, including a fabulous mini-reunion with our favorite teacher next weekend.
The bad news is that because for three years I've done nothing but go to work when I can, go to church when I can, and collapse on the couch playing online every evening, I have absolutely no idea how to add these extras in my life. When I go out and have fun, something suffers. Either I've not done the church work I am responsible for (I lead the outreach group there and send cards to congregants as well as make phone calls each month and pray with people after the service on Sundays), or I've fallen way behind in grading papers, or the house is a disaster! Or I end up staying up much too late, like 11:00 pm and I have to get up at 5:15am, which means I'm risking a flare by getting run down. My support group said I need to learn to say no, but these are things I don't want to say no to - they are fun and making me feel alive, almost normal again. I don't want to lose that. But I don't want to feel so guilty all the time for neglecting my responsibilities. And this weekend I've agreed to go to a leadership training thing tonight although I know there's no way I can stay until it's over at 9:30, then tomorrow all day is another leadership type thing I agreed to attend. And already I'm thinking of how hopelessly behind I'll be. I can't back out now because I've committed to being there, and I know it will be a good experience. Any suggestions??
Lupus, you have no chance!
Love and hugs,
(mom to my little Chihuahua, Brandi)
Diagnosed with SLE, Sjogren's, Reynaud's, Celiac, and arthritis November 2006.