I know how hard it is to be diagnosed with such an unpredictable and systemic disease when you are so young. My heart went out to you as I read your post. I watched my own daughter go through some of the same depression that you are feeling. You've lost your friends, your love, maybe your job and you have gained an illness. Not to mention, some of your medications and the Lupus itself may be adding to your sense of depression. You have every right to feel depression and anger, do not beat yourself up about that. The most common cause of depression with Lupus is the emotional drain from the continuous series of stresses, strains and life changes associated with coping with this chronic illness.
You did not mention your family - brothers, sisters, mother, father. Are they being supportive and understanding. I know you are feeling overwhelmed and your family is probably feeling that way too. The feeling of being overwhelmed is very real for both you and your family.
However, educating yourself and your family can help to alleviate many of the worries and concerns that you and they may have. You must understand that you will have days when you are upset about having lupusó just as your family and friends will beupset that you have it! You will be upset about the side effects of your medications and upset about the limitations placed on on you because you have lupus.
Know that it's no one's fault; I know that doesn't help much, but it is true.
I would also suggest a lupus support group, if there is one in your area.
There is a whole pamphlet dedicated to depression in lupus provided by the Lupus Foundation of America. For information about lupus or to locate the a foundation chapter nearest you, visit their website at www.lupus.org or call them at 1-800-558-0121
What I really want you to know is that we truly understand what you are going through and what you are feeling. Please believe that you are not alone and we are here for you any time that you need to talk or just want to release your emotions. There is always someone here who will talk to you, comfort you, answer your questions and support you!
Peace and Blessings