If they only knew...
I know I'm taking this more personally than I should, and so this is just a vent. But I'm SO annoyed right now!!!!
One of my friends at work was laughing at me because she caught me eating "My Pretty Pony" fruit snacks. Yes, the snacks most appropriate for kids around the age of 6! What can I say, I love gummy, chewy candy, and these were on sale this week. But she made a comment how no one at work would believe I eat them, because they all think I'm so serious.
Maybe I do need to lighten up and not be so serious, but it's who I am! I'm not one of those Barbie doll young types who have a zillion things to look forward to and are out partying every night. If they lived my life for just a day, they would realize that some days it's just not easy to laugh. Life is beautiful, but it is hard sometimes. I do try, I do look on the positive side of life and I'm eternally grateful for all I have and all I am able to do. But living every day with lupus, Sjogren's, and everything else sort of took away my carefree lifestyle years ago. Living with chronic illnesses for which there is no cure kind of takes that from you, ya know?
So I don't know...do I try to be more like them? I don't think I could if I tried. I do get along with most of them well, and I started a "You've been ghosted" chain yesterday, although no one knows it's me.
I guess I just needed to vent about this...thanks for being here.
Lupus, you have no chance!
Love and hugs,
(mom to my little Chihuahua, Brandi)
Diagnosed with SLE, Sjogren's, Reynaud's, Celiac, and arthritis November 2006.