THANK YOU!!! This is ALL that I'm saying!! And I am SO TIRED of people telling me I need to "get over it" or "move on with my life"... If I FREAKING knew how to do THAT, do you THINK I'd be freaking out the way I am????? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Why not try to HELP me figure this out, not just sit there and tell me what I NEED to do, without any explaination of HOW?
And that makes me even ANGRIER...
And then, the fear, started out just being fear of the unknown... But, now all of a sudden, I have this overwhelming fear of death that I never had before... EVER. And the thing is, I KNOW that I can live a long time with this, and more than likely will... But, in my head, my time is short, and I haven't accomplished HALF of what I want... It doesn't make sense because I KNOW better... But, each day that passes, something else happens and scares me even more... Then of course, there's just the fear of not knowing if I can DO this for the rest of my life...
All I want is someone to tell me it's going to be okay... And no one will, because they don't REALLY know... And at the same time, if they did, I think I'd probably think "How do YOU know?" That is how bad my attitude is right now... About EVERYTHING!
And I feel defective because I'm not handling this better... I mean, there are people going through WAY worse things than I am... What right do I have to complain?
"All sounds are potentially dangerous.
All sounds are potentially medicinal.
All sounds are beautiful." ~Yoko Ono