It's great to find this site and read everyone's messages. I have felt so alone. I was diagnosed at the beginning of the summer, but have had the disease since giving birth to my first child four years ago. Needless to say I was bounced around from dr to dr and no one could figure out the problem. I literally thought I was out of my mind. I am on plaquenil (immuran made me deathly ill), mobic, lorezepam for the shakes, prednisone, darvocet and three vitamins. My spine has been swollen for months and my sciatic nerve is pinched. This is quite painful, especially taking care of a 4 and 2 year old. My husband travels weekly, but I have great support from my family. Oddly enough, my mother was diagnosed with lupus two days after me. Question-does anyone find they have become a nervous wreck. The little things upset me greatly and I think-who is that person? I know the medication is working, but I feel like I have taken on a new and horrible personality. Hope to hear from all of you.