Yeah... I don't think I could blame you for not being able to handle that... But, I wonder, (for your sake as well as mine) since lupus can attack the brain, too, if that could possibly a symptom of that? Are you on medication for Lupus? I also wonder if that could be a side effect of meds...
How often do you have the actual BLIND spells? And have they become more frequent or have you noticed? Have you noticed any patterns as to WHEN it happens?
"All sounds are potentially dangerous.
All sounds are potentially medicinal.
All sounds are beautiful." ~Yoko Ono