Absolutely not, Kasey!! It is not going to win this war.....YOU ARE!!
You are one tough fighter, Girl....or else you wouldn't still be here. You've been through so much....I don't have to tell you that. IT keeps knocking you down...thinking it's gonna win, but IT has something coming to it. Kasey's mental toughness, her strong desire to be here with her husband and all of her kids...and her strong will to live. Never give up your strong will....even if you feel overwhelmed and just so tired of it all...you hold on to that fighting spirit...cuz that's the thing that Lupus can't beat.
Yes, your heart is the #1 important organ in YOU, but you're doing all the right things, Kasey. You're paying attention to symptoms and things you know are just not right with your heart and lungs, and you got yourself in to a Cardiologist. Thank goodness they found this and can now monitor it and keep an eye on you. If it was extremely serious, life threatening right now, they would have been right on it, prescribing medications, or looking at ways to fix it. Great advances have been made in recent years in dealing with heart problems, and you have that collective knowledge to help them deal with what comes along with this. Last summer, I watched a close friend of mine go through heart bypass surgery, and I was amazed at how knowledgable they were and how they knew what her problem was and how they were going to fix it. Even though she had a rare condition that was genetic and had caused her heart vessels to reroute themselves to try to adjust to the need for more blood. I was astounded how they took a totally messed up heart, and fixed it to work properly again. It was nothing short of a miracle. And I took care of her for 2 months afterwards and watched how she healed and how well her heart was functioning.
I share this with you to give you hope....do not think that Lupus is going to take your heart from you...that this illness is going to cause damage that cannot be dealt with or repaired. You need to focus on the fact that they found the problem and they are going to monitor it and take care of you. You need to take one small step at a time. And this is just the first step....seeing a Cardiologist and diagnosis. You'll go on from here and continue to be monitored, educate yourself on how to best take care of yourself...your heart...and you will try to do everything within your power to keep IT from doing any further damage. You know this might not even be from Lupus, it may be genetic or something that you've had all along and didn't realize it. That was the case for my friend.
I know you're scared, Kasey. We all would be when a doctor mentions problems with our heart, but this sounds like something that can be dealt with. You are going to be ALL RIGHT! You focus on that! And you focus on your strong support system...your husband....your children that LOVE you dearly...and all your friends here at WHL. We are all here for you whenever you need us.
And, of course, never forget your personal promise from God..."Fear not, for I am with you always...".
Gentle Hugs for your Heart