First off, I just said a prayer for you. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers for the next few days to help you get through this. Of course you're scared. Completely natural whenever surgery is coming up quickly. And the pre-op appointment has a way of really forcing you to deal with all the feelings that go with a major surgery. You need some gentle, caring hugs right now....I'm sending them you're way >>>>
Wow...you've been through so much. That's just too many surgeries in such a short time. You've gotta be one tough lady to get through all that...to make that many recoveries. So that tells me something...that you've got a strong will and a positive attitude and you know what it takes to get through this. That will take you a long way in getting through this one too. Half of the battle is in the strength of your mind and your determination to help your body go through the healing process.
Might I suggest, if you're not already doing this, that you go to Psalms in your Bible and find the most comforting ones. That is something I always seek out when headed for something as major as surgery. (I use them at all other times in my life, as well, but definitely seek them out for this situation). And when you're in the hospital recovering, take all of us there with you too...in your heart! Know that we are thinking of you and praying for a wonderful outcome, and for a healing process that will get you back on your feet as quickly as possible.
And, of course, don't forget to take a few comforts from home when you go to the hospital....your Bible, your favorite comfy bathrobe and slippers, I would always take small framed pictures of my kids to keep my spirits up, and any other things that make you feel more comfortable during your stay.
When your mind starts to go to the worrying place, close your eyes, take a slow, calming breath, and go to your happy place (I'm guessing there are probably frogs there ) or say a prayer and ask God to bring you a sense of peace.
I'll be waiting to hear how well things went...can your husband maybe post something for us to let us know that you've come the surgery fine?