Well, I am all set to have surgery on friday and for some odd reason I am SO totally afraid! It is a major surgery, but a common surgery. A complete hysterectomy didnt sound so scary 8 weeks ago, but all of a sudden, this morning at pre-op I just completely froze. It is something that I know that I must do in order to feel any relief at all. The doctor also insists that it has been known to give lots of relief to lupus patients. I have talked to several doctors, I have done tons of research, but somehow I am still just utterly terrified! I have had 5 surgeries in the past 4 months. I dont know what my problem is! Please send lots of courage my way, and think of me being bored stiff all weekend in the hospital while recovering!! Thanks everyone!