I have been laying in bed every night trying to come up with a plan to make everything in life work. I don't have enough money to pay bills and half of the time I live on peanut butter and jelly.......what a wonderful, nutritional meal! I am in the process of applying for Social Security/Disability. My insurance costs $500 dollars a month and Tim is out working hard for the two of us. I feel so guilty because he pays for my insurance,food and even medicine. I am worried he will resent me later. I just don't know what to do! When you are applying for SSD they don't want you working and if you do, there is a maximum amount of hours you can work. So, during the process what are you supposed to do, lose everything, go bankrupt, sell off your belongings (which I have done)? Why is life so hard and why can't we get the help we actually need? I just don't understand life anymore.
As I grow to understand life less and less,
I learn to love it more and more.
Age 29, Lupus for last 7 years
Medications: Methotrexate, Lyrica, Celebrex, Flexeril, Theophylline, Bactrim, Xopenex, Lisinopril, Ultram