Well you are not alone any more. I am so glad you found us all, we will help you through this. Dont take it personal, the friends thing. I think everyone here has been through what you have said, you tell them, they dont want to know. I have had friends like that too. I can make excuses and say the illness scares them or i can say they are selfish, not real friends and are only there for you to listen to their crap.You decide.
You may not be able to see or touch us, but we are 'real' and so fully can understand you.
Well done on the work front and i so wish i could wave a wand so you didnt have to still work.
I know time goes so slow when you so urgently need to see that rheumi, like slow motion isnt it. If things get too bad, call and see if you can get another earlier appointment, no harm in trying is there?
You have us now.Ask us anything.We will always listen and what one can not answer, just watch another member here come right here and help you with their knowledge.
Now shut your eyes for ten seconds.........breath in through your nose......and out through your mouth....now feel this squeesy hug im giving you......imagine it go on........NOW--->----->----->H----U------G.
I am still here,just been on new meds so unable to function like i used to.I will pop back,just know im thinking of you all and hoping you are keeping on keeping on.xxxxxxx