I’m wondering if anyone has had this happen before. My mom had me hold the up the vacuum on the stairs for about 5 minutes, which for me right now, is like asking someone to bench press 100 pounds and run a 5k at the same time. And I am just coming down from a flare, so I am still super tired. About half an hour after that, my dog grabs a spoon out of a bowl on the table, and she runs away with it, all the while with me telling her to “leave it!” I said this a bunch of times and each time I got angrier and angrier. And I just totally lost it; I came apart at the seams. I yelled “Gosh darnit!” at the top of my lungs (I was very happy I didn’t use profanities) and stormed out of the room to put the spoon in the kitchen. And my mom, came in after me and asked, “Oh my goodness are you okay? I have never seen you do that before.”
I REALLY don’t like being angry. And it really upsets me when I lose it, either crying or losing my temper, in front of other people. I have NEVER directed it at any living thing before, usually it’s just inanimate objects, and my dog is my furry little child. So I feel quite awful right now and I have apologized more times than I can count… to my dog and my mom.
What I am getting at is, this is not the first time I have lost my temper for no good reason. When I am flaring, my patience is little to none, and I get very frustrated very easily, mostly because I can’t do the things I want to do, like getting a comb through my hair, or standing to do the dishes. So I am just wondering if anyone else has this problem, or if you do, what do you do in these situations?
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