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    Default The gift of faith

    I have been an Atheist for 30 years and can give you the best arguments on why their is no God, I have been in debates and always hold my ground.
    Now facing this monster in my family, I find science has let me down and the only place left is "a higher power"
    What a great thing it must be to believe with all you heart.
    To believe that God does not give you more then you can handle.
    That someone is watching over you and keeping you safe.
    That suffering will only bring you closer to him etc etc.

    I am no longer in the business of changing minds just wish I had that faith.
    After being away for church (12 years of Catholic School) I find myself walking into church, I was driving down the road yesterday and there was a statue of the virgin Mary outside a Church surrounded my flowers and a wood bench to pray.
    I made a u-turn and sat there, talking to a statue and making every deal, offer, negotiation I could think of. "If you save my kid, I'll do this or that...

    I wish I had the faith. I wish sins of the father were not passed to the innocent.

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    I will agree with you...I am at a loss how anyone handles something so huge as disease or for some death...just anything monumental without God. I can say He is a source of comfort for me. Jesus Christ being the Son of God and Dying on the cross for me is a great comfort. Right now the docs are unsure what is happening to me and I have the comfort if I do die, I know where I am going.
    I have promises to keep and miles to go before I sleep, and miles to go before I sleep.......Robert Frost

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    Over the years, I've found that I just don't believe. I have wanted so much to have the comfort of believing in a higher power, something, anything. I just have not been able to believe anything I can't see with my own eyes. I have people who are friends here, who have some tough times they are going through, and they ask for people's prayers. I can't tell my friends I won't say a prayer for them. So I muster all the sincerity I can find, and say a prayer hoping there is someone, or something that will hear them. I don't know, but maybe that's how faith begins.

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    Silentscream, Sick n tired & Rob,

    First of all i send you all gentle hugs and so hope life gets better for you all.

    I so want to believe. I believe there is 'something' n 'somewhere'. At Christmas when i was in so much pain, i actually walked and sat alone in the chapel.My first visit since i was a child. I was so desperate and in so much pain and just needed a hug. I spoke to myself in my head to the statue of Jesus, yet still thought to myself.....what if i am talking just to myself? As i walked in and sat there....i did feel 'something'. Dont get me wrong i did not feel it on my skin, but deep inside i felt that hug, like someone somewhere heard me. I walked away from the chapel thinking, mmmm i wonder if there is a place? The next day they pulled out that dreaded infected and ulcerated tooth that had plagued me. Coincidence...maybe, but i think this is when like Rob said the belief begins.

    More recently, i found myself praying or 'talking in my head' again. I so prayed for god to give me the strength to call a vet (which i promised i would never ever do) and to make sure my dog did not die in to much pain. I found that courage and made that call....they arrived so quick and she died so fast and very peacefully.
    I thought later....coincidence? Now i question myself.....what proof is there that there actually is a god? This is where the learning to believe in a faith comes in. I am trying to believe in god. I just do not have the tools to do it on my own. I know there is something....and somewhere....there has to be.This can not be the end. Too many coincidences i think for this to be it...the end. I hope i find the faith like many people. Ive never been very religious, but i feel something. I like reading peoples posts here and feeling that 'belief'.I wish i felt it 100% now. Maybe as i learn one day i will.

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    Silentscream,

    I am glad you sat down and talked to the statue. I hope you did feel 'something' and keep believing that your prayers will be answered. I realise i waffled on in my post a bit, but i know what you were saying and so understand. You must feel so much pain. We are all here for you and hope we can help a little.

    Love n hugs
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    as i have said on previous posts, i very much believe in angels....i know my grandmother, and my dear friend send me messages and signals. I believe they do many other things that go unnoticed. I feel an occassional hug, i feel their brief presence. I feel a calmness after talking to them/god/myself....whomever it is.....

    If believing provides some relief from our world, then believing is the right thing to do. Because true belief is personal . Silentscream, i am glad that you followed the angel guiding you to that bench. Sounds like you got some comfort from the little chat.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Silentscream View Post

    I am no longer in the business of changing minds just wish I had that faith.
    After being away for church (12 years of Catholic School) I find myself walking into church, I was driving down the road yesterday and there was a statue of the virgin Mary outside a Church surrounded my flowers and a wood bench to pray.
    I made a u-turn and sat there, talking to a statue and making every deal, offer, negotiation I could think of. "If you save my kid, I'll do this or that...

    I wish I had the faith. I wish sins of the father were not passed to the innocent.
    I'm very much like you. I am not a religious person at all. I suppose you could consider me an athiest. I know many athiests actively push religion away, and want nothing to do with it. I find myself wanting that faith that I see so many other people taking comfort in. I want to believe in a higher power. I mentioned before that I say prayers for my friends who are in need. I don't know who or what might be listening, but saying the prayers is a form of faith I think. I don't know what I believe, I haven't "seen the light" or had some miraculous conversion, I find my thoughts and beliefs changing just a little at a time. Maybe that's how it happens for some people.

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