wow i have put this off for 2 years. i guess i really just never wanted to deal with the truth. but i'm sick and i need help. my doc says my lupus is mild, but if this is mild i hate to think what might come next. same as so many of you, flu like stuff, joint pain, fevers, so much depression and anxiety (thats much harder then the body pain- did yours get better??). i guess i want to know if you really have found a peacful way to live with this, do you just press pass the pain and show up for life? i want my love of life back, i want to help others who have this. but i guess i need so guidence. so sorry about the spelling ops: