Welcome to the site. Saysusie is right. Don't feel like you have to be ashamed of our body and don't worry about what others think of you. Like Saysusie said everyone has flaws, so they have no room to judge you. I am sorry to hear that the Lupus damaged your kidneys. Are you on a transplant list? I hope that you keep posting.
Lupus for many years. Like most of my life. Sjogrens that started at 35 and Scoliosis, Spinal Stenosis, Degenerative Disc Disease, Osteo-Arthritis of the spine, Ankylosing Spondilitis, Periferal Neuropathy, mild CP and now just recently diagnosed with PA. I had a disc replaced in December of 2007.
Plaquenil, Sulindac, Imuran, Celiac diet, Tramadol and B12 shot once a month.