Hi Marjorie :lol:
I am not in your area, but I completely understand how you are feeling. To be so young and have to deal with so many health issues because of Lupus.
I know this is no comfort, but you should not let what others think about you determine your self-worth or your beauty. There is no single person on this earth whose body does not have flaws. We cannot deprive ourselves of those things that make us happy because we think that we should be flawless or because we are concerned with what others think. Those other people do not put food on your table, they do not pay your rent, they do not drive you to the hospital, they do not clothe you, and they do not comfort you when you need it! Therefore, what they think is truly insignificant!
Now, what you think is tremendously important! So, I say...Wear what makes YOU feel good and what is comfortable to you. Now, bear in mind that with Lupus (even in remission with Lupus), you MUST avoid excessive sun exposure. For most of us, this means covering our bodies from head to toe. In the summer, we do this with light weave, loose fitting clothing. But, we are pretty much covered up all of the time. This is out of necessity, not because of what others think of our bodies.
I know that the weight gain with Prednisone can be depressing. But, the symptoms that we suffer without the Prednisone far outweigh the weight gain. So, we take the lesser of the "evils", so to speak!
I do not have much experience with dialysis, so I cannot offer you much comfort in that area. I can only tell you that I, and everyone else her, truly understand how this disease can completely change your life. We try very hard to make some of those changes positive ones. It is easier when you find people who are understanding, supportive, comforting, and informative. You've found all of that here! Others will be along to give you their support also!
Welcome to our family
Peace and Blessings