The doctor has labeled me disabled. I HATE that. We applied for public assistance and were denied medical coverage, isn't that grand? I am require to apply for SSI now and I did this online yesterday. My question is how long does it take, is it really hard to get approved? We are drowning in debt since I lost my job due to this illness. I hate not being able to do for myself! I hate crying from knee and wrist pain when doing a simple load of dishes. I just hate this. I hate lupus. I hate asking for help. And I hate whining which is what I am doing now. ugh.