Welcome to the forum. I think that it is normal to feel the way that you do. I have to avoid glutan, wheat, oats and barley and MSG and it is hard to go out and eat. You will in time come to accept this way of life. I will have you in my prayers.
Lupus for many years. Like most of my life. Sjogrens that started at 35 and Scoliosis, Spinal Stenosis, Degenerative Disc Disease, Osteo-Arthritis of the spine, Ankylosing Spondilitis, Periferal Neuropathy, mild CP and now just recently diagnosed with PA. I had a disc replaced in December of 2007.
Plaquenil, Sulindac, Imuran, Celiac diet, Tramadol and B12 shot once a month.