"Verbal Vomit" is absolutely allowed here! We even allow "Verbal Hurling!"
You need never apologize for the length of your post or for the fact that you need to vent! We, all of us, truly understand what it feels like to have one of those days when the pain is relentless and the tears are overflowing due to frustration, fatigue, and a sense of helplessness.
I agree with Oluwa, if you job is not aware of your illness, it might be time to educate them. Perhaps there are some job accommodations that they are willing to offer you. I also agree with Oluwa that it may be time for you to take a day to care for yourself. If you continue to push yourself, it will only enhance the symptoms that are giving you problems.
I know how frustrating it can be to have to try several medications, only to find that they do not provide relief from your symptoms. Believe me, you are not alone there. I think that most of us have been through that trial and error phase with our medications! I can only encourage you to continue to try combinations, because there has got to be a combination that will give you the relief that you need. It sounds as if your doctor is willing to work with you in that area. In that respect, you are fortunate.
Whatever you decide to do and however you decide to take care of you, we are here to support you, to help you, and to give you understanding and information when you need it. You are not alone!
Peace and Blessings
Look For The Good and Praise It!