Glass half full;
I am sorry that you are feeling a bit down.
I, too, agree that Valentine's Day is over-commercialized ("Buy her a diamond to tell her you love her"; "Buy her a car to tell her you love her"; "Take her on a cruise to tell her you love her")....How about just telling him/her that you love him/her???? The day is just another excuse for merchants to pawn their wares and try to make you feel guilty if you don't buy their products on this day!
I am glad that you survived it, but I am sorry that your friends and family failed to acknowledge you and your gifts. Please do not let their failure prompt you to stop showing them your love in ways that make you feel good.
Lupus has a way of ripping our loved-ones away from us and leaving us feeling lonely, isolated and un-loved. But, I can tell that you are already discovering strengths that you never knew you possessed. Having Lupus, somehow, also makes us able to see the world very differently and find that the things that had once been important to us in the past have changed dramatically. We now see priorities very differently and we have come to appreciate the simpler pleasures in life and having the people most important to us nearby.
When we are lonely, it is usually for several reasons: We feel as though you don't have enough (or any) friends; we feel that those we know don't truly see us or don't truly understand us; we find it difficult to feel good when we are alone. Sometimes we falsely believe that if we are alone, then something must be wrong with us.
I want to tell you that, while you may feel lonely, you are not alone. There is a family here at WHL for you whenever you need us. Perhaps you can also think about everyone you know and have ever known. Maybe you think a certain friend or relative wouldn't want to hear from you. Think again -- you may be surprised. Try contacting them and see what happens next. Be sure, however, to have a list of possible contacts, just in case the first doesn't go as planned. Think of old friends, too. You don't even have to tell them you're contacting them because you're lonely. Just reach out and communicate, like you've done here, and you'll start to feel better.
Now, if you truly believe friends and family aren't an option, then reach out to people you don't know. You're already on the Internet, and your options here are endless -- as are your friends here. Again...you are not alone!
Peace and Blessings
Look For The Good and Praise It!