Please know that there are many of us who understand your pain, who understand your loneliness, and who understand how it feels to live in pain every day - 24 hours a day, with no relief and no indication that there will be relief anywhere in the near future. But, in spite of this, we try to fight for our health and try to understand our purpose. But, one thing I want you to know is that, in spite of what you think, you are not alone! You may not have anyone to visit you in person, but every member of this forum will be here for you to visit with any time of the day, every day and whenever you need us.
There is never a reason to feel that you have nothing to give to this world..you have proven that by writing to us and asking for help. You will probably find that YOU CAN HELP MANY OTHERS HERE by sharing your experiences, sharing your stories and giving of yourself to lift someone else's spirits. Maybe one of your purposes was to come here to us.
I truly believe that God does indeed hear us and he gives us what we need (which is not always what we ask for). He may not take away your pain, but he may lead you to someone who is helped by the fact that you shared your experiences with them. He may not rid you of this illness, but he may make you the voice that saves someone's else's life! You are a cherished child of God and you do have a purpose....even if that purpose is just being there when someone calls to you for comfort!
We are here for you. You have called out to us for help and for comfort, we are here to give you those things. Do not take yourself away from us!
I am going to wait for you to reply to my post. I want you to talk to us and share with us and let us share with you. I am positive that another family member here will also respond to you (because this forum is filled with caring, giving, and supportive people) and you are important to us!
I await your reply
Peace and Blessings
Look For The Good and Praise It!