OMG, that's a lot to deal with! My heart and prayers go out to you and I, too, am sending hugs. You are NOT NOT NOT a whiner and you should never hesitate to come here for a big dose of 'we understand' because we really, really do. I hope you find a doctor who takes very good care of you. The right doctor and the right treatment can make a world of difference. You WILL feel better. I hope all goes well for your condolences to you both. Take care.