:cry: I feel as if I've been ran over by a truck. I can't tell where the FM ends and the lupus begins, or vise-versa (Doc says its early lupus, can that cause so much pain even in early stages?). The stabbing pains are almost to severe to take. Meds just are not cutting it today. I don't take pain pills, for fear of addiction (half my family's addicted). I want to lay down, but it increases the pain and stiffness. I want to move to decrease some of this, but it hurts so much. My foot feels as if someones having fun grinding a screwdriver in it. Almost all joints have the stabbing pain. What do you do for relief? How do you make it stop? I have 3 kids and a husband to take care of. My house and pets and yard. Seems I still have to do all the work. No one here helps or cares to take the load off me. They act as if it doesn't hurt as bad as I claim. Its frustrating. My eyes and head hurt to, muscles are so weak and hurt. Mild chest pains too.

I just needed to get it out of my system, sorry. I'm very glad for these boards, you people are so great. It just saddens me so much that I have to turn to a computer to find understanding and support, not my family. Sometimes I just wish I could vent at home to someone, not that I don't appreciate you all. Does this make sense to you? Everyone here just acts as if I'm still the old me who does it all, and they don't want it to change. I guess I'm just tired of being ignored when I want help or understanding.

Well, now thats out of my system I'm going to go to bed. I will get up tomorrow with a smile on my face and keep making it through the day. I will do it for me and my kids (its not their fault they are to young to understand). I'm normally a pretty strong person, forgive me for my weak moment. ops: