I hope Im not butting in on a conversation, but I wanted to maybe suggest something, Cheryl. First off, hats off to you for taking care of such young kids while you are sick. I bet youre a great mom. You know, have you tried calling down to the local middle or high school and posting an ad on the bulliten board? Or at the local YMCA or something. I bet there are alot of girls who would love to come and watch your kids. You could have her come over a couple of times while you are there, and see if she is a good fit. Then you could try leaving her alone for an hour or so to start, and gradually move upward. My friends and I have done that many times, and oftentimes, they start at like 13, and remain your sitter all through school. Obviously, you could talk to her parents first, etc. I know our local YMCA has babysitting courses for young girls, and they take it very seriously.
Im sorry that you cant really depend on your Mom, thats a bummer, but more common than you think. I have alot of friends who dont even bother asking their moms. They get the "Ive already raised my kids" -type response. I am fortunate - my parents live next door and they adore their grandkids. As a matter of fact, its Friday night, so my son and his Nani and Papa always spend the night together. They do McDonalds or pizza and watch a movie, etc. Like I said, though, I am very lucky. You really should be able to take a break from your kids once in a while. I would hve gone crazy had I not worked nights when they were small. I looked at it as time to myself!!
Anyway - I have been posting like a maniac today. I started to feel lousy again, so Im just chilling out on the computer. You guys probably think Im obnoxious!! I hope everyone has a wonderful evening - Im so jealous of all of you with the built-in pools!! Although, I live about 100 ft. from the Atlantic Ocean - so I shouldnt really complain, right?
Love and prayers to all -
For God has not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, love and a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7