Glad you found this site. The members here have helped me a lot more that my doctors have.
A long time ago I got real depressed to the point of no return. I turned to my maker for help. On January 8th 1980 my depression left me for good. Now I just get mad and change the things I can and forget the things I can't change. I can't change the fact that something is wrong but I can surely live the best life I can and enjoy the good days and tell the bad day to go somewhere else. They are not welcome here.
Find something that give you enjoyment and go for it. I have a sailboat that gives me the enjoyment.