I am so sorry that you are going through this, But you must never blame yourself it is not your fault that he is having a hard time, it's not your fault about finacial stuff or medical bills. You never asked for this disease and it's not right for you to blame yourself.
It must be so hard to watch your husband feeling like that but that's probably how he feels when he sees you ill and in pain. I would suggest talking to him about it and counseling sounds like a good plan, doesn't most insurance companies cover some counseling? First thing first sit down and try to talk it out with your hubby and discuss a plan of action like counseling.
Also talk to your doctor about it they are also great at recommending someone like a counselor. And they would know about what medical stuff are coverd like certin cousneling.
Having lupus doesn't just effect the patient but the whole family and it's tough really tough. But remember your husband said he would be with you and love you for better or worse in sickness or in health, and this is just a sicknees part of your life right now.
Hang in there and please feel free to PM me anytime you need to, we are here for you.
Take care hon
SLE Lupus. Fibro, IBS, RA\
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