Welcome new friend, the best thing you could have done for yourself today - was to reach out. Believe me, there are literally hundreds of exceptionally caring, nurturing and very knowledgeable people on this site. All willing to be your guides, mentors, sisters, brothers, and yes - many of us are mothers - and I promise, there are enough "mommies" here to love you through this. This has been the absolute most comforting site that I have experienced and I highly recommend that you stay connected. Ask questions, there are many here who lived many years with lupus and can share their stories with you. Our administrators and the ever awesome, one of a kind "Mother" to us all, Saysusie will be by to introduce herself. You will fall in love with her immediately.
If I may, I want to encourage you to make a very real decision, right now choose LIFE. Choose to live every moment, of every day - with a heart of gratefulness, because God blessed you with an absolute angel for you to love, nuture, teach and to hold. You've been blessed to have a companion that some of us don't have. I understand, how alone you can sometimes feel when you are scared and you don't have your mother to hold you (we can never, I repeat never get to old to need our mommies).
All of us at one time or another have stepped into and walked in your shoes. You are in the right place to find comfort. I hope you will let the many "moms" here be your mentors, sisters, and best friends.....as many of them have become for me. You never need to go through this alone.
You are very worried, and understandbly so - make sure you talk to your doctor about your concerns.
We're here to help you, nurture you and encourage you. Ask questions and you will find so many people here that are ready and waiting to be your wings when you're too tired to fly on your own.
So hold on to hope, it will take you further than you think. Hold on to love - it will fuel your hopes to keep you going strong.
"I believe that friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly." - unknown