You gotta LOVE a girl with the name "Sisterloudjoy"....oh my gosh, I saw your name, and it immediately made me smile!!!
This journey of living with lupus is one that has never been one to walk alone on - stay connected here and you will soon discover how much healing in your heart takes place with all these wonderful people. There are so so many folks here who are wonderful encouragers, teachers, and nurturers; and we can never get too old to need any of those kind gestures. I hope that you will find this a safe haven to vent, share, ask questions and soon you will find yourself in a new "family".
I completely understand about the "why" question. In the beginning, I believe that it is a natural response - however, I have a terrific doctor who said to me "the why question, doesn't bring results....however, the "what" statement does. I asked him "what do you mean by that?" and he said "there are always possibilities in what statements, like "what can I do to understand more about lupus, what can I do to find a network of people that I can turn to when I'm not feeling so great, what can I do to help someone else who's hurting too". I found his answer to be so helpful for me....and I hope for you as well.
Remember, you will never ever be alone when you stay connected and plugged in to these people - there will always be someone to chat with.
So hold on, and have hope - you have a HUGE family of friends here to walk this journey with you.
So, welcome Sisterloudjoy - let the love in and let your heart soak up all the good there is in this life to be had. We all cry, and we all understand those up and down days - just remember, now you don't have to take that ride alone.
"I believe that friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly." - unknown