Thank you to everyone has taken the time to read this. I know some things no one can answer, but having an outlet just to speak about it...well it's a burden lifter. I know I've strayed the last year or so due to everything....but I feel as though when I'm in doubt this is a place I can turn to, people to lean on other than my family that is already so burdened with all of this. People who understand. And just not feeling so alone and lost...just thank you.