I am so sorry that you have been dealing with so much! Many of us found that we were relieved to finally have a name for what we've been suffering from for so long. No one wants to have a chronic illness, but if we do, at least we know that we are not crazy and that there is a name for our illness.
Like you, many of us have lost "the person that we once were!" However, the important thing is that we do not lose the capacity to find "The Person Who We Can BE!" We fondly refer to it as "the new me". This is the person who is an advocate for their own health care, a person who learns as much about the disease as he/she can, a person who makes the appropriate lifestyle changes in order to manage our illness and to prevent flare-ups, a person who finds a reason for joy each and every day, a person who does all that he/she can to make "the new me" the best "me" that he/she can be.
Please know that each and every one of us here at WHL are here to help you to accomplish these things. We all care, we understand and we will help to guide you with answers, advice, and information!
Welcome to our family!
Peace and Blessings
Look For The Good and Praise It!