I think im kinda in denial too even after 3 yrs. I push myself to the limit then pay for it...like you Mari I need to give myself permission to rest and relax and not feel guilty about it...even though I still do! im still in denial about needing to take ALL the meds the doc prescribed..i get on a kick where I take them regularly then get pissed off b/c im 31 yrs old and am taking a handful of meds twice a day JUST TO MAINTAIN! and I still feel like crap half the time...grr so aggravating...I know im not the only one on here having these feelings and thanks for letting me rant and rave...nice to have people that understand..no one really does unless they have the symptoms...

much love to all my lupie buds