Thank you everyone.
I'm having waves of emptiness and loneliness, followed by anger, followed by positive feelings because I have planned to return to the UK and be with my family - I get to meet my 1 year old nephew for the first time.
My partner and I are still very much good friends - we were for 13 years before we got together so it would be a shame to throw that away. There will likely be difficulties down the line as either of us move on etc, but I hope we've got the strength to deal with it. We're actually planning a trip away together over Easter! It's silly but our relationship has seemed more like a friendship for a long time now, so it's not that much of an awkward transition, even though I love her very very much and am experiencing an awful lot of heartache.
I'm not coping very well at work, plus I'm having some bad side effects from a new med so waiting to change that - everythings a bit up in the air. Just waiting for the dust to settle.
Thank you everyone for your kind words xxx
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