So we finally broke up...
My partner and I finally broke up tonight. She doesn't feel the same towards me any more. It's been a long time coming but it still hurts an awful lot. I have no idea what I'm going to do, I'm in NZ...so far from my home in the UK. I can't cope on my own even though I only work part time. I can't afford to live and pay medical bills alone. I don't know what to do. She's offered just to move in to the spare room and still help me out with cooking, shopping etc...but I don't know if I could handle that - I still love her.
I was already at rock bottom when this happened, struggling a lot with depression. Feeling beyond low now. I want to curl up in a ball and pretend it isn't happening but I can't.