Hello kasemsouk and welcome to the WHL forums!

I'm sorry to hear about your situation. I had to make a choice like that as well. I chose the cellcept and now I am on dialysis. But I believe I would be on dialysis anyways because the lupus was attacking my kidneys in the first place. I'm not saying that you should make the same decision. I just want you to know that there are others who had to make this life-altering choice and that you are not alone. I suggest that you really think about what's more important to you; the ability to have children or your kidney function. Of course this won't be easy. I wish I could be more help to you.....