When I was on MTX, I had no idea, how well it was working. Then when I had to stop it because of very high liver enzymes, I realized how much better I felt, with the MTX.
To me it was worth it, because it slowed down further damage.
I also have alot of my pain in my fingers and hands, some deformaty is starting to show.
As of now, I am only allowed to take Mobic ( anti inflammatory) and/or Flexeril ( muscle relaxer), of course the Flexeril does nothing for my hand/ finger pain.
I am going for another blood test tomorrow and hope that my liver enzymes are down and maybe I can start on MTX again.
I know how frustrating it is, because you need your hands and fingers, for everything.
I may have been dealt a bad hand, but at least I'm still playing with a full deck. ( most of the time anyway).