It seems as though its been years since my older sister was diagnosed with SLE, yet its barely been 10 months. This is really difficult to deal with. I cant concentrate on anything anymore, i constantly worry about her...I cant accept that this has happened. Too much to take in at one time. I love her too much to see her so sick all the time. I wish i got lupus and not her, i miss the my the old KC. The way she laughed and always talked and never got off the computer because she would get into her novels she was writing, and she would always want to talk about them to me and tell me everything and was always so energetic, and happy. She is just so different now with lupus. I'm worried that she will be like this the rest of her life. I don't want that, no one in my family wants that.