I've only had two panic attacks in my life. The first time that it happened, I had no idea what was going on and so I went into it full throttle. My husband was completely befuddled and had no idea what was wrong with me or why I was behaving so irrationally. We were on vacation and I demanded that we pack our things and leave for home immediately (5 days early). Dear thing, he just looked at me, packed up, and we got in the car and came home!
The second time it happened, I had some idea what it was. However, that did not stop me from going full throttle again! This time, my hubby also recognized it and told me that I was having a panic attack. We worked through that one together.
I just know that they are horrible and you feel so out of control. I am sorry that you are going through them again. It is good that you are able to recognize that what is happening is a panic attack, so that you can try to help yourself get through them.
I am sending you tight hugs because I understand!!
Peace and Blessings