Bikini Top & Depression
My fun adventures with my Ruhmey and GP Rant......
First today I woke up and my fingers were sore, I couldnít put a bra on so I wore my bikini top ha-ha better than nothing right. Ok so first appointment was with my Ruhmy, I told everything from my work stress, to my going to the gym 3x a week to the vertigo to not sleeping. Of course when i was talking about work i got all emotional and tears just kept coming! Well he said he can read between the lines and tell Iím DEPRESSED!!! (At this point am like WTF mate?) And he gave me a prescription for antidepressants.
Next I went to see my GP (family doctor) and we went over my blood tests results and I told him what my Ruhmy said and of course the tears came out and he asked me all the questions about depression (sex drive, suicide, homicidal and hopelessness) after all that he came to conclusion that Iím not depressed but I am (confused so am I) but then he said its seems my job is a huge source of my stress. He said I 3 outcomes and those 3 are: 1) quit my job, 2) use the EAP (Employee Assistant Plan- talk therapy) 3) Try the anti depressants.
So I leave and go see my mother where I have total breakdown of what has occurred today and honestly I thought about it and thought about it and Ii canít see it. I go out with my friends, I go to the gym! I laugh and play and goof off! I enjoy life! Yes I have my bad days but doesnít everyone??
So what to do now! My GP (family doctor) wants to see me back into 2 weeks and I figure that I will take advantage of option 2- talk therapy! And see how that goes and then go see him.
To be honest Today was the first day where I felt depressed, caught off the world because that stupid word.
"We're all in the same game, just different levels. Dealing with the same hell, just different devils.