I've known about my Lupus for about 9 months now (it came on quite suddenly last spring) and am having great difficulty coming to terms with the pain level in my joints and tendonitis here & there, which my doctor says is also Lupus-related. It seems that every week I have a new place on my body that hurts. I'm a nurse, so it's not like I don't understand the whole process, but I don't feel like I can talk to many people about it at my job because I'm there to take care of the patients, not myself.
I don't want to constantly be complaining to my husband, family, etc.
Truth be told, most days I want to just sit down and cry, cry, cry. Which is not like me at all. I've had medical problems in the past, but finding out I have Lupus and trying to deal with the daily pain has really beaten me down. Sometimes, emotionally, I feel like I'm all alone on this planet.
But then, all of you on this web site must understand what I'm feeling?