I hope I don't sound too negative, and cause to upset people. If I do Rob, will you please delete this post because I am not going online very much lately.
Originally Posted by Nonna
I don't believe that "God gives us Lupus for a reason" We have a saying in Australia, and some of your have probably heard it...
Sometimes *&^&%& just hits the fan !!!! If you don't know what I mean by *&^&%& it is the result of when you are constipated and you take too much laxatives. Lots of *&^&%& comes out. Sorry people, this is so unlike me to use that sort of language, but it is true, sometimes stuff happens for absolutely no reason at all.
However, having God in my life makes things even more bearable. He is there comforting me every painful step of the way. Without him, I would be in such a worse place. Even though my life is currently out of control and I have no idea what is happening to me, at times i push God away, but I know that he is there with me, waiting, still comforting me, never feeling rejected because he loves me no matter how I feel. I feel ever so close to God at the moment, yet so far away from him because I have no idea why this is happening to me. Only God knows, and I KNOW he doesn't want any of this to happen to me. But as I said before ..... sometimes *&^&%& hits the fan, and by gosh, it is being thrown all over the place making my life such an ugly mess. Yet, God stands there and takes all my *&^&%& as well.
Please accept my apologies for being so disgusting.
Diagnosed with Lupus - 22 June, 2010