get a print shop software program or something
I was given a print shop program years ago it helped me in ways I couldnt believe. I was able to create signs, cards and coloring books with it. Someone told me it helped me become a computer designer without taking classes, courses etc.
I had a thought for everyone who has Lupus, use a paint program you have on your computer to create your own pain, sad, glad or mad faces. Also think seriously about the fact that you are a creative writer. Every message I see reflects what is going inside you and me.