I am spiraling into sadness
I have no friends at all. I am in college now and I have nobody besides my mother; she and my father are the only ones that care in this world. A Junior now, I feel like a retard going thru life with no meaning, or aim. I was diagnosed in HS and since then, I have felt like my cognitive function is declining, and I can't tell if I am lazy or tired from the disease.
I am on an emotional rollercoaster. I keep losing hair. I get chest pains. When there is a test, I may actually break down.
The closest people ignore me and leave me to my misery when I get emotional, angry. hear them in the room across, laughing with friends. They feel I am being a bitch and I am cold and emotionless. I want to die sometimes.
Am I alone?