I just want you to know that you are not alone at the "pill anger". I have been there myself sever times. Many of us have. We know we need them and we know it is kind of silly but dang it they are a reminder every time you have to get them out. It's another one of those things healthy people can't understand but it made perfect sense to me.
you are completely normal if that makes you feel any better :)
I think for many people the "pill anger" comes from the fact that Lupus is an elusive enemy with no physical or tangible form. Fighting with Lupus is like boxing with your own shadow. No matter how fast you throw a punch, your blows never connect.
Originally Posted by tgal
On the other hand, the meds we take are a constant physical and tangible thing we can look at and hold in our hand. I'm generally one of the first people to tell others that you need to take your meds consistently, and as directed.
However, I'd be a liar if I said I never took out my anger and frustration on one of the only aspects of Lupus that I can actually see and hold in my hand. I've thrown Prednisone out of the window on the way home from the pharmacy, and I've flushed more than one bottle of Plaquenil down the toilet at 2am on yet another sleepless night out of sheer frustration and anger.
Needless to say, it's certainly not something you want to make a habit of doing, but if "Mr. Take Your Meds" can end up being pissed-off enough to do this, anyone can.
It's nothing to be ashamed of.
Ya know, its been proven that holding ANY emotion in is BAD for our health. Talking about it and/or writing about it is so IMPORTANT no matter WHAT. NO THING in our lives is trivial if its making us feel OOKY in any way. LET IT OUT and FEEL BETTER after! Thats what friends are for! Just like the song by Dione Warrick (gosh, i probably spelled that wrong, SORRY if i did Dione! LOL) WOO HOO to VENTING!!!!
Love this site! I hope to contribute as you all have for me. Today is a good day.
Glad you are having a better day!
Originally Posted by tomcatsgirl
Here's to GOOD DAYS! WOO HOO for THAT!!!! This site LOVES YOU too!!!!!