Hang in there, that's all I seem to hear. Besides my father's heart condition, now my mother has one also. Her stay in the hospital shocked her so much that her mind is really deteriorating. I'm having a bad day physically and she keeps repeating herself. She also said she couldn't find her hearing aids, so in the middle of trying to cook lunch, I had to go look for them. Couldn't find. Them anywhere. 2 hours later we discover that they were in her ears. This evening while I was cooking dinner,
Where do I begin and how do I say this. I don't know if it's selfish or not. We had a beautiful day today no problems at all, then I made the simple mistake of going into the kitchen, Mom walked away and left me there to watch over what was on the stove. According to her I took it off the stove too soon and dinner wasn't hot enough to suit her. Mind you the food has to be hot the plates warmed and everything on the table at six. She then proceeds to spent the entire evening harping on everything
Well, here I go again. I've been in Florida since April, I finally got the insurance stuff straightened out and am running low on meds. Now I have to tackle new docs. I'm trying to put together my med history and med list. Googled docs and I'm ready to start calling.
I feel ok, hardly any pain, but my stress levels are back through the roof. My Mother's mind is going and I have to deal with outbursts now.
I'm caretaker now 24/7, but I get an hour or two to myself
I'm feeling very alone right now; I know it's just a downer because I've been flaring and can't seem to get back on my feet. The pain in my hip and leg was unbearable today but I pushed through it as usual. Now myshoulder and arm on my good side is acting up. I hurts much I want to cry but I know it will do no good. Every one just wants me to be healthily. At least as healthily as I can be. But I hurt too much to exercise . I still try though. But I hurt and I want to cry and I feel so alone-
I'm so tired of dealing with Eeyoore Days. I want to be able to live again. Just when things start to go right again something goes wrong. It's so totally not fair.
I was just thinking that my mood swings are getting worse. I probably need my hormones adjusted again. I need to get hyper so I can do. Of course it's not going to happen the endo wouldn't allow it. Nice thought though. I just need to push through the pain and start doing. I've been letting my body shit down and