I've tried, I did well while both were in reasonably good health. But now with Mother's fall resulting in a broken elbow; I find that I must accept my limitations. I can not physically care for her. I have irrated my shoulder, pulled a muscle in my back that can not heal while I continue to lift her when she slips, catch her when she starts to fall. She will not listen to me because I'm the daughter. I thought I could do this as last year went so well. But this year has been terrible 2 stays
I'm feeling out of sorts at the moment and can't figure it out. My health is pretty stable but I think I'm unhappy, tired of coping. Coping with everything, tired of dealing with my Mother's idiosyncrasies, tired of dealing with my Father's spurts of temper because he believes I'm ignorant. I know it's just a mood and I'll get over it.
It's just this trapped feeling, I'm working around it, getting rid of it. But still, every now and then it gets to me...... Like today. I just
Hang in there, that's all I seem to hear. Besides my father's heart condition, now my mother has one also. Her stay in the hospital shocked her so much that her mind is really deteriorating. I'm having a bad day physically and she keeps repeating herself. She also said she couldn't find her hearing aids, so in the middle of trying to cook lunch, I had to go look for them. Couldn't find. Them anywhere. 2 hours later we discover that they were in her ears. This evening while I was cooking dinner,
Where do I begin and how do I say this. I don't know if it's selfish or not. We had a beautiful day today no problems at all, then I made the simple mistake of going into the kitchen, Mom walked away and left me there to watch over what was on the stove. According to her I took it off the stove too soon and dinner wasn't hot enough to suit her. Mind you the food has to be hot the plates warmed and everything on the table at six. She then proceeds to spent the entire evening harping on everything
Well, here I go again. I've been in Florida since April, I finally got the insurance stuff straightened out and am running low on meds. Now I have to tackle new docs. I'm trying to put together my med history and med list. Googled docs and I'm ready to start calling.
I feel ok, hardly any pain, but my stress levels are back through the roof. My Mother's mind is going and I have to deal with outbursts now.
I'm caretaker now 24/7, but I get an hour or two to myself